I can discuss any of these topics in extensive detail based on your interest. I would not want to discourage you with any of this information from pursuing your interest. So if you have a notion of what you would like lycanthropy to mean or be for you, you can work on developing that and follow carefully each thing that you prefer or like. There are also numerous websites dedicated to lycanthropy and werewolf stories often based on film and book series which one can derive elements of their interest to pursue and develop. When I talk about lycanthropy it delves into a number of unusual areas and in many ways may not meet the desired qualifications of what people are wishing for, usually composed of several anhistorical stereotypes with no real basis except a loose interest in something about wolves and certain thoughtless memes about their nature.
Before modern media depictions lycanthropy traces back to ancient traditions regarding human talents and abilities. It is also connected strongly to human development and success and themes which seemed to the ancient people to be divinely inspired. So to clarify again, there are a number of websites which deal with the concept in the way that it is usually dealt with and there is the serious and careful study of the notion and its development and its practice. What I discussed on the forum was actually a general method for pursuing anything in the various ways which might satisfy an individual. Thank you again for your interest and I would be happy to answer any questions you may have specifically or to discuss any particular element you might like to discuss.
Don’t worry about any rambling, sometimes that can be a good way to explore different ideas that might be coming up, and it seems your desire for finding a path is also a desire for self discovery, so speaking freely and comfortably is probably a good thing in that regard.
Furthermore, I believe you can consider yourself already on your path, which has brought you to the Occult and Werewolfism and whatever, but really the great thing, contrary to popular notions (and much of what I say may be contrary to popular notions), is that you never have to choose. You can take everything in the world that is inspiring or of benefit to you in any way that it is, and turn it to your advantage for your own happiness and success, that includes everything, including rage, fear, and those things which people often call “negative”. You can pick up things from any of the developed religions, from fiction, and modify things as you please to develop further ideas which perfectly motivate and inspire you.
Many people will talk about the very obvious and stereotypical features of what they consider to be werewolfism, but I have always been attentive to the greater themes attached to anything mystical and occult. One of those interesting connections is depression and lycranthropy. There are even academic and psychological articles on the subject, and there seems to be something about depression which seems to draw people or connect them back to lycanthropy or the pursuit of werewolfism, and that is worth examining and thinking about. What it is about being like a canine that people want when they are disturbed by some element of living under certain strictures.
Lycanthropy is a trans-national phenomenon since ancient times, it is not restricted to the berserker tradition, though many of the elements of the Norse traditions seem to perfectly align with the greater themes which seem to emerge in every culture. Lycanthropy is even mentioned in the Bible for example, and has an ancient precedent in the tribal traditions of ancient Indo-Europeans as well as in Africa and other places like Siberia or among various American tribes, and with it seem to emerge the same themes and tendencies as well.
Lycanthropy has had two main forms and representations, in one version the “animal” element represents a stereotype of “wildness” and in another, less well known stereotype, it represents “craft” and “skill”. The modern stereotype associated with werewolfism is that of “wildness” associated with anything animal, and even Satanists subscribe to the notion of “carnality” with the “bestial” an idea which may have stemmed from Greco-Christianity over time, and may have also had some ancient precedent, but this is not a notion which was subscribed to by all. For others, the canine represented adaptive intelligence and ability, and was associated with strategy, wit, divine guidance, magic, and outsmarting/theft (not the usual sort of theft only). This was also the case in Greek Society, and the wolf was associated by many cultures with the behaviors of nomadic people as well as outlaws. Sometimes these were called “Bannen” like in the Anglo-Saxon culture, haha like being banned from a forum or exiled from society, which has had a traditional association with both depression and its feelings of otherness and alienation and aloneness, as well as having to live by stealth and craft and wit, like an animal that lives off of stealing garbage or the scraps people leave behind. The Greek “Cynics” were named after dogs because of the various behaviors associated with dogs for example, and there were rites of certain tribes which dealt with transforming into wolves, which was an extremely ancient Indo-European tradition related to the training of individuals, particularly the “nobility” as well as shamanistic activities and magic. Basically, what it had to do with was the unique human ability to adapt and “transform themselves” into animals, through the wearing of furs and disguises and other means and trickery in order to hunt, steal, attack, or anything else. Because of the ability of humans to mimick and imitate animals or learn from their behaviors and study their methods, the human was able to pick up all sorts of useful tricks and methods, but this was only one of the many components of this idea which was present.
The animals, like anything else, were considered useful information, and to overcome a threat, the humans figured out how to become like what they feared or were concerned with in order to overcome it, and not just become it, but to become better than it, more than a wolf, but a man who knows the art of a wolf, or the tricks of a bird, or whatever else, who has devices, who has fire, who can do things that go beyond what the animals can do, and this is why it had to do with “nobility” and the arts that made such knowledgeable consider themselves kings, because with the ability to learn from other creatures and “steal” their abilities and knowledge, humankind became the King, the dominant creature, whose next major foe was now those greater powers, namely, nature, and then reality itself. Humanity is still working on fighting these things, with improved measures against natural disasters and better technologies, new uses of “fire” such as electricity which is the very heart of “magic”, electromagnetic activity, such as what occurs in the brain.
Mental activity, wit, intelligence, and inspiration ties back to Odin, Mercury, Hermes, who are the names from various cultures of the Mind and Magic itself, the cosmic consciousnessness which pervades everywhere, associated with the manifest electromagnetic activity in storms, and even in our minds, the point of transference between the “Unmanifest” potential, and as “Messenger” that which delivers the “Inspiration” or is the mode in which things are communicate thought/information, which is basically anything and everything, and finally “how to use it”, which is why these figures were associated with “Craft” and “Skill”, “Science” and “Trade”, basically any human activity, including magic. Why the “Son of Hermes” was called “AutoLycus” meaning “The Wolf Itself” known as the greatest of “thieves” and so associated with “Prometheus” meaning “Forethought” who “stole Fire” and gave it to humanity, which in metaphorical form can represent the light of knowledge, such as in the ancient Zoroastrian and Vedic traditions as Attar and Agni, and also in the very literal sense of how fire has helped in all industry, and as a metaphor also for magic.
In the ancient thinking, these are just words, which were personified and anthropomorphized into various figures but are references to very real things that we are all familiar with. Imagining them strictly as naked human figures is really misunderstanding the intention when the illiterate were being educated in these things, and it is possible some believed in those things as they do today, but Thor simply means Thunder, and refers to everything that has to do with Thunder both literally and metaphorically and that is just about how it goes for all ancient understanding, everything was looped and mixed up, just like the depictions in the art, intertwining understandings that can provide a much richer and more interesting, vibrant view of the world which is not compartmentalized in the same was as modern thinking and trends like to do. For them, it was all one thing, and only after time did that sort of synesthaesia fall apart, just like the neurons in the brain grow further apart over time or the galaxies grow further apart in space and seem more distinct from each other. With a mind that can barely distinguish between how one views things as potentially meaningful in a dream or reality, the ancient way of thinking or the magical way of thinking connected things which would scarcely be connected in todays thinking. Nothing was mundane, nor was any experience to be taken for granted by the wise. If one saw a thing, or met a person, or heard a thing, anyone with their wits about them would wonder at its meaning or at least what such might have acted as a catalyst for, and thus nothing was in error or irrelevent, all information was grasped at, and the whole world lived and spoke in a sense. It is a mystical life which is not entirely dissimilar to psychosis or mental illness, even schizophrenia, except the saving grace in all those matters is “disbelief” as an anchor. People might misunderstand this idea and think it to mean disregarding things, but it shouldn’t mean that. Believing strictly in things, a path, a system, is simply not grasping the truth regarding reality, which is Chaos itself, free generation of information and experience, where anything one can imagine is really possible in numerous ways, and that is magic itself. So again, contrary to the popular notions that “belief is what counts”, the real key to a mystical life is disbelief, which is knowing that anything can happen, which leaves a person in fear, which is a high meditation, there is no safety, no structure of order or comfort as it appears to be to most. In the magical existence, the sun does not necessarily rise tommorow, and even the notion of “tommorow” is only a notion really, as there is no tommorow, only a today, and everything in a today, is what we are at the moment.
That is all that matters really, that you live a good life and a vibrant one, by watching carefully and taking advantage of what you can in your favor, and there is no other path than that, and nothing better to choose.